January 13, 2009

Just a month away

Hello World! Do you realize that I'm blogging twice in the past three days! Crazy, huh, but don't get spoiled to this! This is a once in a lifetime event! Just kidding, my goal this year is to be a better blogger, but sometimes it's so hard to write about my life, when my life is soooo boring. Yesterday was my first day back into torture, but overall it went pretty good. both of my teachers let me out of class early, so that was a plus. At least better than last semester, all of my teachers kept me the full time, and one class even went over! Both of my teachers this semester seem to be pretty cool. They are both younger, and seem to care about the subject they teach. And the good news is, that both of their final exams are not cumulative, which is a great thing. The bad news is, that in all four of my classes require a research paper, or a book report. Yuck! Oh well, I've got 4 months to get them done, right! That is if I don't wait to the last minute to do them all! = )

Today has been pretty good! My feet feel pretty, and when my feet feel pretty it makes my happy! My sister got me the cutest pair of shoes for Christmas! They are pink, black and purple flats, with a big flashy patch of sparkle! They are soooo cute & COMFY! I love buying, receiving, and definitely WEARING new shoes! Thanks sis!

Today is January 13, 2009. Wow, where has time gone? A month from today will be exactly one year since my beautiful Kiley Elisabeth has left me, and everyone else who loved her so much. I have been dreading this day for a while, but the worst part about it is that it is on a Friday. February 13, 2009, is on a Friday. Yes, Friday the 13th. Why? Why does this horrible day with horrible memories have to fall on Friday the 13th the following year? I guess any other day would be just as bad, but the sound of this one seems worse! I still can't believe how fast time has gone by. I want to dedicate these next days (31 days) to Kiley, and take the time to write about her and how special she was. Each day I would like to provide you with a characteristic that describes her, or maybe a story, that has changed my life because of her. My sister was an amazing person, with a great heart, and I think everyone out there should know that!

Day 1 - A Loving Sister
Kiley Elisabeth Martens, was the most wonderful sister anyone could ask for. She always knew the right words to say when I was down, and could read my mind better than anyone I know. Being only five years a part, we were able to create a bond that has impacted my life forever. She was an amazing person, whom I looked up to, and wanted to be just like. It's hard to find many people that are as strong, beautiful, athletic, caring, and have a good heart, like Kiley. But not only did I lose a sister 11 months ago, I lost my best friend. The one person I had to go work out with at night, the one person, I would cruise around with in her convertible, as she blared her most recent downloads on her ipod. The one person, that I would go tanning with at Premiere, after a hard work out. The person, who would run to Braums with me for double scoop or Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream on a waffle cone at 9:00 at night, even though we were suppose to be dieting. The person I would share all of my clothes and shoes with. She use to come into my room, and flip my light on while I was still asleep, and yell Good Morning, and start searching through my class for something to wear. At that time it frustrated me, and I just wanted to sleep in a little more, but it's amazing how much you miss those things, and you would take them back in a heart beat. Something else that seems crazy, is that my foot has shrunk almost a whole size since Kiley has been gone! I use to buy my shoes kind of big, so that Kiley could wear them too. She truly wore a ten, and I mostly wear a 9 or a 9 1/2. But I would buy a 10 just for her! The one person who could pull late nights with me helping me TRY to understand College Algebra, and never lost her patience with me. The one person who got me addicted to Diet Mount Dew, and always kept her fridge stocked with the best beverages, but never any food! The one person who made the best friendship bread, and tried every flavor of pudding there was, until she found the best one. The one person, who could destroy a kitchen minutes while cooking, and leave it mess for other people to clean up! This list could go on for pages and pages, but most of you get the point. Kiley was truly one of the best things that has ever happened to me, and I would not be the person I am today, without having spent 19 and a half great years with her. So, thank you for being who you were, and making me the way I am! I love you sis


Steph said...

This is a beautiful post. I can't believe how fast the time has gone by either, and how strong and beautiful you have been through it. It seems the way you felt about Kiley is the way I feel about our friendship. How I would not be who I am now without you teaching me. I can only imagine how difficult the next month is going to be for you and your family. And I can't imagine how difficult that day is going to be. Know that I am hear for you and your family for whatever you need. I know you have a lot of supporters but you can add me to the list.

I love you Amellion Dollars ;)

Suzette said...

Okay, I will comment about the first part of your post here! I LOVE those shoes! And I love the fact that someone as adorable as you wears a size 9 - 9 1/2 shoe! So do I... But realistically 10's fit the best (I'm still in denial! ;)

I think about Kiley so much and even more so I think about you Amelia! My heart breaks for you that you had to lose your best friend and sister! Kiley was such an amazing person! She knew how to make every girl jealous, all she had to do was walk into a room! I am so blessed to have known her and got to know her even better towards the end! I love seeing pictures of her thru facebook or your blog! She is one gorgeous person! I am praying for you as you go thru the next month! I am so sorry you are having to go thru this Amelia! I think it is wonderful that you are posting such great memories celebrating her life!

Love in Him and big hugs!

Anonymous said...

Cute shoes! Yo sista has some style! Hee!
I really like your idea here...it is enjoyable to read your memories...even if a tear or two fall as I read. She simply made life fun, and it just won't ever be the same without her.

Cat said...

What a beautiful tribute - you know you've succeeded in showing the beauty of your sister's life when reading your words makes strangers, like me, wish I had known her.

I am so sorry she isn't here with you anymore.

I'm going to go call my sister.

Jessica said...

I miss Kiley too, sweet girl! We all do. Let's make it a happy day Friday by remembering how beautiful she was! : )

Robin and Stephen said...

Amelia! You are such a strong, beautiful person! Kiley trained you well! =) She was such a beautiful, strong, bouncy, fun, protective, loving person! I am so blessed to have had her in my life! I love how you are honoring her memory with great stories about Kiley! Oh how she is missed!

Mark and Cari said...

I know there is something to dread about just the sound of Friday the 13th. However, I have a few positive comments....1) I was born on Friday the 13th AND to top it off February 13th is my birthday. So, I can somewhat feel how badly you are dreading this February 13th. It will be the first birthday that I have where my sister will be sad because she lost her best friend on that day. It kind of takes the celebration out of things for me.
2) Friday, February 13th falls exactly one day before Valentines Day - the day of love...and this year it falls on Saturday. It is a whole day (meaning most people don't have to work and will get to spend the whole day) with the one(s) you/we love! Think about how much love Kiley had for everyone and how much love she gave to you. We ALL miss her! But this year think about all the little babies that will born on that day and how it will be the happiest day of some people's lives. I hope this can shed a little sunshine into your day!