17 months

I miss you, but, I'm still mad at you. I'm mad at you for leaving everybody behind. I'm mad at you for only thinking of yourself. I'm mad at you for being so stupid. I still feel anger build up inside, and I could just scream. Sometimes I just want to see your face so I can shake you as hard as I can and ask you what you were you thinking, and the wonderful question, "WHY"? I still love you so much, and I keep praying for the day when there will be no more pain and sorrow, but most of all no more anger. I hate feeling bitterness towards you.

Making progress

I went out and rode Miss Kitty again, and let me tell ya, We Are Making Some Progress! It's amazing how much faster a horse will learn when you are able to ride everyday as appose to once a week! We haven't been wasting anytime this week! I have had her for six months, and to be honest with you, she has not made much progress (mainly my fault, because I have not had the time to work with her). But this past week she is starting to turn into the best horse ever! This week's goal has been neck reining. When she came back from the trainer she would neck rein, but not the way I want her to. I have always rode a horse that when you lay the reins over their neck they turn, not when you have to pull in. So, all week we have been focusing on laying the reins across her neck with a very little tug to help her, and she has been doing very good. But, today we were strictly turning with the reins across her neck! I was SOOOOOO excited. All that hard work this week paid off. And I'm sure if someone had a camera, they would have captured the worlds largest smile! I felt like we had actually accomplished something, and all that time was not a waste. We spent over an hour weaving in and out of the neighbors pine trees (Thanks for letting us borrow them!) And then we rode around in the yard, turning around random objects. I just hope when I go back tomorrow, she is still doing a great job, and didn't forget everything over night!

Kiwi got to go with me since dad was home to baby-sit Bruiser. And she had a blast! On the way there we had to stop at Co-Op to get some feed. When I went in, I left Kiwi in the car, so I rolled down the windows just a hair. I cam back out, got in my car, and pull around to the back to load up my feed. Got out of the car, loaded up my feed- in my 2 door honda civic.... I need a truck! And started to get back in my car, but for some reason the door handle wouldn't open. Ya, it was locked! Kiwi locked me out! My keys were in the ignition, my phone in my purse in the passenger seat, and I was standing there like an idiot tugging on the handle like it's magically going to open. So, I walked around to the other side, gave a tug on that door, and nope, it was locked too! I started to push down on the window as hard as I could, trying to give myself some room to squeeze my arm in there. The good news is that I got my arm in there, unlocked the door, but all the sudden my arm wouldn't come back out! My arm was stuck! Now, I felt like an even bigger idiot. I open the door just in case Kiwi decides to lock it again, and out she bails, I try hollering at her, with my arm stuck in the window, but shoot, would you listen to someone yelling at you with their arm stuck in a window.... after all they can't come after you! Knowing my arm went in there, so therefore it has to come out, right? So, I close my eyes, count to 3, and pull as hard as I can. Let's just say that all the skin above my elbow was pulled back, and my arm is now swollen and starting to bruise, but at least I got my arm back! And now, I head off to find my dog, knowing she is in trouble because I'm now FREE! We finally get loaded up in the car and head to Farmington.

But anyways, back to riding Miss Kitty, Kiwi followed me everywhere I went. And she didn't miss a beat. Even the hour we spent weaving in out and of the trees, she weaved in and out of the trees too. When we ran the fence, she ran the fence too. By the time we were done, her tongue was dragging the ground, and she was "dog tired". She even slept the whole way home, and if you know Kiwi, then you know she does not lie down in the car! We had fun today, but Kiwi did have to have a bath when we got home. For some reason she thought it would be a great idea to roll around in the barn!

Here are some pictures from yesterday, Bennett and Ella riding Kitty.

Love My Life

Amazing...... Wonderful...... Magnificent...... THE BEST THING EVER!

There are no words to express how I feel! This week has been the best week ever. Last Thursday was my last day at the bank. So I now have FREE TIME. Yes, those are words you have never heard me say before, but it's true, believe your eyes, I just said it & I will say it again, FREE TIME. On Monday I actually pulled a double at Sassy's but my day still didn't seem as long! I went to work, got a break for a couple of hours (put the house back in order) and went back to work. Yesterday was a great day too. I woke up early, headed to Farmington, rode Miss Kitty for several hours, laid out by the pool, headed to town for a pedicure, went and ate Mexican Food, and then rode Miss Kitty again. Does a day get any better? Today I baby-sat, but we still had fun! We went to go see Madagascar 2 and swam. So, that's what I've been up to these days! My summer has officially gotten better! The bad news is, I was looking at a calender, and realized I only have 6 weeks left before school starts back = ( That makes me sad!

Merry Christmas !!!

Christmas.......In June? Well you've heard of Christmas in July- so why not?  = )   

For Christmas, mom got Kirby and I gift certificates to Sky Venture Aviation, Inc. I had never heard of it before, but let me to you, it was a blast! We got to go to the old Fayetteville Airport, and fly a plane..... yes- we flew the plane! Can you believe it? First, you go through a 30-45 minute course training, and watch a video over the basics of a plane and how to fly and then you get to go outside, hop in a plane and take off! We both got to fly around for about 45 minutes. The view was great- we got to see some great buildings, and even the Razorback field!  I would definitely do it again, especially if I knew I wouldn't get sick again! (Because of such a small plane=no air & high altitude=ears pop) It was a great experience and a great way to spend the afternoon with my brother! Thank you !!!

Isn't it Cute?

I guess NIKE is in town for a track meet? This is the 40 million dollar plane they flew in.......... It was NICE!

*Surprise*

On Wednesday night, when I came out to my car..... after a BAD/Slow night at Sassy's I found 3 beautiful red roses on my car windshield. I was so Shocked & Surprised and HAPPY!! It definitely turned a Bad night into a GREAT night! It's amazing how the smallest things can make the biggest difference! 

Bee-Z

My life has been craZy Bee-Z this week..... And it's only Tuesday! All the fun and excitement began yesterday.... Here are some great reasons  (excuses) why I never blog:

• I work Full Time @ a Bank
• I started a 2nd job yesterday at Sassy's 
• I started Summer School Yesterday
• My life is very boring, I do the same ol' thing every day.

You can clearly see what my life consists of and revolves around. I have no FUN what-so-ever..... ok- maybe a little!

Do you remember when my dear friend left the bank and we threw her a going away party not to long ago? Well, this is her and her husbands new restaurant: Sassy's Red House Bar B-Q & Grille.

She was kind enough to let me start waiting tables there. The good news- its fun and exciting and hopefully I will make good tips. The bad news- I missed the whole week of training and it is very tiring and very hard work. But in the end it will pay off.... or I hope! If you like some good BB&Q  and a great atmosphere, then you should come on down and try it out! The food is amazing.... and the service is great too, hehe. I will be working there on MWF and Saturdays from 5:00-10:00! Some come see me! = )     *It is located past the old hospital towards Dixon st in Fayetteville, its a red building! You can't miss it!

And guess what? It's time for school AGAIN. Yeah! Wahooo! I'm so excited..... NOT! That 2 week break sure did go by fast ......... maybe because I spent a week of it at the beach, which was amazing! I am taking Survey of Exceptionalities this summer, hopefully it will go by fast too. The good news is that it is an online class, so I don't actually have to go to school!

Happy B-Day Becke' !!!

Today is my wonderful sisters BIRTHDAY! Becke'- you are a wonderful daughter, amazing sister, fantastic wife, a great mother to your children and a friend to all.  You have so many great characteristics and talents, that have blessed those around you in many ways. I pray that God will continue to bless you and help you impact other people's lives, as much as you have impacted mine. Thanks for being such a phenomenal sister and an amazing role model. I love you & HAPPY BIRTHDAY LULU!